Wednesday, September 10, 2014
"Is this the name of it? Is this what will take her from us?"
I couldn't help but be gripped by fear at what had become a monster staring at me from my computer screen.
I have cried several times since then. The fear of this virus, that starts just like any other cold or sniffle but turns worse quickly. For children like Waverly, this is bad news. And I am scared.
But I am seeking to remember Who holds her, Who has numbered her days before she was even a twinkle in my eye. He loves her and His plans for her will be accomplished, whether that includes this virus or not, as well as the outcome of that.
Lord, help me trust You. Hear
Wednesday, August 27, 2014
Thursday, August 21, 2014
This is how we spent our day. After a rough night with fever and one throw up, the doctor wanted to see her and then sent her on to the ER for X-rays, blood work, etc. She has aspiration pneumonia and is starting an antibiotic for that, in addition to the one she started last night for a new uti. Thankfully her oxygen sats have been ok although she's had a fever and high heart rate and respirations. She definitely feels bad but wasn't acting too sick so the PICU doctor agreed to let us take her home and treat her here. If she gets worse we will just call him and go straight to be admitted to the PICU. Please pray that she stabilizes more tonight. That her breathing rate and heart rate slows down. And that her oxygen remains good.
Sunday, August 10, 2014
Sunday, July 20, 2014
We left on July 11, which was free Chick-Fil-A day and also 7-11 day. We grabbed our cow shirts and went by Chick-Fil-A on our way out for some free chicken for lunch on the way there. Then, a few minutes from our friends house is a 7-11, so we surprised the kids with a stop there for free Slurpees! (Kathryn thought we were going to miss 7-11 day and was despairing that she had to wait a whole year before getting a Slurpee-I think she thinks they are only available on 7-11 day! Don't tell her otherwise...!)
This was Waverly's set up for sleeping. Can you find her?
One of our activities was going to the Children's Museum. Kathryn loved being a weather girl! She was also so cute, pushing Waverly around and showing her things there.
I was so happy that my sweet friend Brooke and her kids could meet us there to play! We've been friends for over 20 years! (Wow, that makes me feel old!!)
Another van selfie. We don't travel lightly. :)
I feel guilty for the decision.
I feel bad that she was left behind.
I didn't take any "family" pictures at the beach because it wasn't our whole family there.
I felt like there wasn't any "good" decision.
I cringed every time someone said "Oh how wonderful!" when we told them our plans. Because it wasn't wonderful. It was sad. And it was hard.
But I am thankful. And it was also good. This life can be so confusing sometimes. It's hard to know what to feel, because everything has two sides and both are very valid and felt poignant.